Tuesday, November 6, 2007

My relationship with my Mind

I don't know why but my mind starts to wander in directions it is not familiar with and invariably ends up in depressing places. This happens a lot when I am sitting all alone in office, at the end of the day, waiting to leave for home. I have tried very hard to control my mind from wandering but to no avail. It behaves as if it has a mind of its own. Now, I know all this because that's exactly what happened today. Finding me alone in office, my mind took off, thinking thoughts that I would never have thought of thinking.

I wouldn't have paid much heed to it had it been some meaningful thought like what to have for dinner or when do I leave office and head home or some such important, life-altering things. But no, my mind seems to shun those known, well-trodden pathways of thought when it's on its own trip. Instead it ventured off-road and started thinking about essentially inconsequential stuff like growth and change and adapting to change and the like. Honestly, what good has such idle thought ever brought to anyone?

It's only recently that I have noticed these flights of fancy into uncharted teritories. For the life of me, I am not able to figure out where I went wrong in nurturing my mind as it grew up. I never stressed it, allowed it to take as much rest as it wanted, made sure I didn't load it with any heavy work and never, ever, asked for it to think anything that would have more than 4 vowels and 3 syllables. In return, it has always helped me in thinking all of my most important thoughts.

I thought I had a really good thing going with this relationship. Now I am not so sure.


Stinkypaw said...

...maybe you have a rebellious mind?
You need to have a serious think with your mind!

me said...

Hmmm. I guess you are right. Need to settle this before both of us get hurt bad.